imperfections.

BACK, like finally.

2009-12-07T23:47:00.002+08:00

Bernicegoh is finally back here.
Nothing better to do.
Hayden told me to post.
So yeah, post luh.
Apparently single like.. NAO !
Happy & watching matches ;D
Nothing much.
Looking forward to Christmas BBQ,
And CHRISTMAS (:
Shall go luh.
Nothing to say.
Byebyebyebyebyebyebye(:

BERnicegohhhhhhhhhhhhh! <3

Back for home econ again ):

2009-09-15T13:02:00.002+08:00

Reviving, reviving.

Hello pepopos.

Not gonna post so much till EOY's over.

Today just wanna blog cause my bee's enlistment is today.

Morning, had breakfast with bee and wanling.

Mark had headache so didn't come.

Anyway, he have at least one week left with wanling loh.

Not like my bee, he's not going to see me till this coming saturday or sunday loh.

Sian, why guys have to go army man.

Cried today, cause I miss bee ):

But alright now.

Promised bee that i've to study hard.

So i would.

Tomorrow studying after school.

Thursday and friday have Adam Khoo -.-

Then Saturday studying with ling and shi.

Sunday with both of them plus emilia and xinping.

Hehe, next week, hmms...

Next week then say norh.

Going end this thing in one sentence.

I miss baybee, gonna wait for you till you book out.

And one last no link sentence to sum up some craps.

"Dont act like you've no wrong, cause everything fucking started from you bitch."

Ouch ouch, serve you right TKCB.

End here.

Bye pepopos (:

Ruldolph,

Bee's number one.

Back for F&N.

2009-09-04T09:36:00.004+08:00

Chey, so bored now man.

Need some ranting (:

Can't keep everything in my heart.

If not i'll explode.

I rather use my heart,

Making present for my bee.

Keeping friendship nice and sweet.

With meishi and wanling.

Don't want to keep it in my mind either.

Need it to plan places to go with bee or girlfriends.

Which are more important things.

I'm going to rant now.

Don't like it, please go away.

Cause, spamming would be childish and ignored.

Start ;

A top, use to wear out.

You wear it to sleep.

And you still have face to return it to me.

I'm not your rubbish bin you now?

Wash until its colour become like shit.

Like a old faggort rag can?

Keep it for yourself la.

Don't want then throw it away.

Don't throw it to me.

Thank godness, and fuck you.

End of ranting.

Any unhappiness please fuck off.

You enjoy spoiling people mood and impression of them towards others.

Continue then.

I don't feel that i'm wrong in posting this.

You won't even care.

Last question for you,

Why do you like to break things up ?

Relationships, friendships.

Everything.

Leave me alone.

And meishi and wanling don't hate you.

Don't blacklist them with me.

They still care for you whether you care or not.

So hate me alright?

Cause i seriously can't refrain myself from hating you.

I detest you equally to that old uncle.

END END END *

Its spoiling my mood.

Holidays are coming.

And im looking forward to it.

Sha sha sha, have to go back to coursework.

Bye bye (:

Ruldolph,

I love bee.

What th fuck. _l_

2009-08-29T18:40:00.004+08:00

No peace, only clarifications.

If you weren't my friend,

Would i bother to care?

If you were someone i didn't know,

Would i even cry over you?

You never understand.

I'll never hate you.

And if it's necessary, i would apologize.

But i won't deny the fact that i asked you to go and die.

Cause, your words make me feel like saying that.

Don't go around saying one-sided story.

If you would, its alright.

Its me, the bad person all the time.

At sec one, i got blacklisted by you.

It was also my fault.

Sec two, you blacklisted wanling.

It was her fault.

When was it your fault?

Never, so this time.

Its like my privileged to be YOUR bad person again.

And subsequently, everybody's.

Thanks for letting me know that I'll need to care one less person.

Live your life your way then.

I've washed my hands off you.

And you really want to know why i said,

"I was disappointed in you" on my weebly ?

Cause you dampened everyone's spirit by smoking again.

You know now ?

One more thing.

Whenever you're cash down.

You turn to melvin.

And when melvin starts to avoid you.

You go for alternative routes to get to him.

Can't you save up by yourself ?

Repeating what wanling once told you.

You're just like a social escort.

Please respect yourself, you're sixteen already.

I've cleared what i need to clear.

That's all.

Ruldolph,

Darling, i did warn you that the truth hurts.

Reviving my blog suring F&N again.

2009-08-28T09:50:00.003+08:00

Hello. F&N again.

Finding recipes.

Bored.

Chinese was bored.

Everything was bored.

Boohoo.

Yesterday had bee over at my house.

Then he went home quite early.

And fall asleep.

Today is a cold day D:

Shivers.

School was as per normal.

Looking forward to recess as im hungry.

As is meishi ;D

After school going odac by force D:

Then dont know where to go.

Tomorrow planning for a movie but not confirmed yet.

Meishi's unable to make it D:

Then monday will be teacher's day celebration.

Why do we have to study before celebrating -.-

Then tuesday is school holiday.

Tada, end.

Going back to my coursework.

If not Mdm ong's gonna flare up.

Chacha, bye people.

Ruldolph,

As happy as per normal.

Flag day 2009

2009-08-15T16:59:00.004+08:00

Hello people.

I've got alot to rant about.

One sentence to summarise this day.

Sucked.

It was quite fun but the problem is, the tin need to be half filled.

And some unlucky people needed to fill it full.

They're mad man.

Waited for our turn to get our tin.

Then a secondary two guy cut our queue.

Damn fed up.

Idiot brainless secondary two, GUY.

Then bought Boost chocolate from 7-11.

Forgot to take, so went back to take.

Then the women show attitude -.-

Old and immature.

Lols, i went to dhoby with meishi and melvin.

For breakfast.

Mac for breakfast and stomach craps because of ice milo.

Saw JIAMING at macdonalds.

He donated one dollar and pasted his sticker on me.

Then went around asking for donations there.

But stingy people everywhere.

However, there are many generous people too.

Hahas. Went back compass at 12 plus.

Reach there early one o'clock.

And we're unable to return it cause its not half.

And someone practically bounce onto my bee the moment seeing him.

So with our very fucked up feeling.

We went to get it filled around sengkang area.

With wanling's help and Meishi's.

All three tins passed.

Then we went seperate ways.

This thing is lame.

The end.

Don't want to rant any further.

& my bee always abuse me the loh.

LOLS, end.

Ruldolph,

Flag day ?

Back at computer lab for home econ.

2009-08-11T14:02:00.004+08:00

So so so so damn bored now.

Home econ's 100 minutes was used for theory.

Oh my god.

Super boring.

Now meishi has just switch computer.

Due to the computer beside me isn't working.

Im alone now D;

My coursework is hard to complete.

So i knid of give up a little.

But no matter what i'll still have to go back to it.

So yeah, hard hard hard.

Today bee's back at work.

Bored, and i've counselling.

Damn it.

Really hate it.

Everyone have to wait for me jus because i've counselling.

RAWR.

English compo i had 21/30.

Happy, and blogger's unfair again.

Only have problems when im home.

Have to catch a little time in home econ to blog.

Hope Mdm Ong won't angry.

Okay, got to go now.

Back to coursework.

Bernice, CONCENTRATE !

Ruldolph,

I miss bee.

Blogger's alright only at baybee's house.

2009-08-10T17:55:00.003+08:00

Yo people,

Blogger's being unfair.

So can only blog when im at bee's house.

Back at mine, weebly norhs.

Nothing much to say.

Tomorrow back to school.

Tune in to my weebly for more updates ;D

Boring man D;

Got to mug hard D:

Got to go now, steamboat's at home.

Bye.

Ruldolph,

Sweet.

Woohoo,.

2009-08-07T20:46:00.002+08:00

Wahhhh, Blogger's finally normal.

Roar, but i've given up.

Maybe posting more on weebly link.

Down there, under my links.

Yada yada, That's all.

Post next time. ;D

Shucks.! Bye.

Im bored, he's sleeping.

2009-08-01T18:25:00.004+08:00

♥.

Love can be as simple as it seems to be.

I'm so bored.

I apoplogise for anyone that i fail to meet up today.

Due to , Colin Chua Wei Xiang.

Until now he's still sleeping.

He even quarrelled with his sister today.

Scary D:

Oh my god, i am so bored.

To prove my bored-ness, i did the following stuffs.

One, I put chocolate on his lips.

But he wipe it away accidently while half sleeping.

Two, I played with his face.

But he got itchy so i stopped ;P

Three, I use his hands to play with his face.

But he had no reaction.

Four, I tried pulling him up.

But, He's just too heavy.

Lastly, I occasionally slap him lightly.

But he's like a pig, no reaction.

Oh man, im so bored. D;

Why is he capable of sleeping for such a long time.

I've been hopping blogs till im bored.

Blah blah, end.

{♥} Ruldolph,

Boyfr, WAKE UP !

Finally, some place where blogger's okay.

2009-08-01T16:30:00.003+08:00

♥.

Hello people.

Finally found someone's laptop with no problems on blogger.

It's my boyfriend's.

He's now sleeping so i get a chance to use his lappy.

Hahas, fat pig.

Last night ton and drank.

Now tired like hell.

At night going over to andrew's chalet to cut cake again.

Okay, shall post more about yesterday.

Yesterday, went to odac.

Fun and very slack ;D

Then went to Koufu for dinner.

Then went back to school for Night Study.

And, WOW.. Only two people from our class went.

Which was me and meishi.

Lols, so we went to 3e6's study class.

And join them.

Overall was great and i'll be going for the following study lessons.

After night study, walked to Anchorvale cc.

Then back to compass.

Had ice cream, and headed home.

Man! it was first time i felt that i've drained all my brain juices.

And used up all my strength.

What left in me that moment was nothing.

And i missed my boyfriend.

He's one expressway and a few roads away from me.

So far, i did not like the distance.

But its alright, i've him right beside me now.

Though he's sleeping soundly.

Still wondering whether i should go over to the chalet with boyfriend.

Let's see how it goes then ;)

Smileys, End.

{♥} Ruldolph,

Boyfr, i glad you're here.

At com lab again (;

2009-07-31T11:48:00.000+08:00

♥.

Hello people, Im at computer lab again.

Today, i've a total of five periods.

Three of it i was in computer lab.

Cool right ?

Im blogging cause i've stucked at a emaths question and im bored.

Amaths paper, i had fourteen question right, out of fifteen.

Proud man ! hahas.

Still not sure whether im going for the night study today or not.

Bored, i feel bad that kenny got badmouthed by his classmates.

They're dumb or what.

Sms only mah, if can't sms ;

What's the phone for.

Please, grow up.

It's just messaging right ?

Want then come say me laa.

Most of the times is i sms him first the laa.

Really hope they can stop it.

Now back at my emaths.

Damn irritating.

I shall run before lessons end.

Please stop saying him.

Yada yada, Bye.

{♥} Ruldolph,

Grow up Badmouthers.

Broken english*

At school again.

2009-07-31T09:55:00.001+08:00

♥.

Hello, actually nothing much to post today.

Cause, its only the third period of today.

Next would be recess ;D

Looking forward to it.

Desa and Co should be at Sentosa by now.

Colin should be mapling.

And thanks to boyfriend for sending me to school today.

Not being late, but extremely early.

And accompanied me for breakfast.

Had chinese test which was okay okay.

Couldn't afford to fail if not mum will kill me.

Today maybe going for night study.

Maybe not.

But no matter what, boyfriend will be away.

He's going for poly's bbq and andrew's chalet.

So yeah, today i am on my own.

Going odac today, good girl.

Probably, balling after that.

Or maybe some motivation would come along.

And i would go to the night study, good girl.

Provided, we can talk to friends.

And meishi's going ;D

That's all for today.

I miss Mdm Ong D;

Wish she come back asap.

I love F&N, Bye.

{♥} Ruldolph,

Miss th times, last time.

fucked up.

2009-07-29T16:41:00.000+08:00

♥.

Today's a boring and fucked up day.

Back to rant as usual.

Morning was super pekcek.

Don't feel like saying.

Pekcek! RAWR.

After that was alright.

SS test was harder than expected.

Maybe cause i dint revise enough.

My wrong.

Did health screening.

I reduced height to 168cm. ;D

And weight increased a kilo.

Maybe im fatter.

Or maybe drank too much peach tea before it.

After that was assembly.

Sex talks.. Boring like hell.

After school, Boyfriend came to fetch me ;D

But th bad thing is, a human being saw him.

And decided to implant some troubles into my normal day.

Of course dint say that he was my boyfriend.

But actually i should have said he was.

May i ask, what's wrong with BGR ?

Maybe your answer will be..

You're too young, Bgr will affect your studies.

You're not mature enough to think what's right and wrong.

Etc etc and yada yada.

Hello, its the 19th century.

Its not like im th only having a boyfriend.

Don't you feel uncomfortable talking to me ?

Lols, i don't really care about all this stuffs.

But why me, out of everyone, its me, so unlucky.

Forget it, my fate.

I only like schooling because of my friends.

Classmates, some really interesting lessons like ;

English by Mr Kang.

Home Econ by Mdm Ong.

And more.

I really miss th times where Miss Chong.

The friendly and always cheerful Miss Chong.

PeiHwa changed so much.

I don't like.

Live for one and half year, then run.

End of rant.

Now eating maggie noodles.

Cooked by my boyfriend ;D

Im blessed.

And ate mine magnum which made my mood better.

Yada yada, Bye.

{♥} Ruldolph,

Ni ying gai bei zhen xi.

Am i selfish, just replying yours baby.

2009-07-28T13:54:00.000+08:00

Tags appreciated are replied.

For those who relinked, Thanks.

Baby ; Thanks for tagging though i know you usually on com only for gaming.

The rest ; too long ago comments le.

Lazy reply.

Appreciated.

At Home Econ's lesson ; let's rant.

2009-07-28T13:12:00.000+08:00

♥

Hello people.

Bored now.

I should rant about yesterday.

Yesterday i got my phone confiscated.

Lols, fucking retarded can.

Super fucked up.

But forget it.

I've calmed myself down very quickly.

Lols, now im using my sony mobile.

One month then i'll be able to get back that phone.

Damn it.

I don't care.

I must voice out my comments.

" Your teaching is freaking boring.

And you don't know it.

We're freaking bored and falling asleep.

You only continue nagging.

For god sake, please!

Less nagging and more interesting lesson can ?

We're your students, not your child.

And sometimes sounded so attitude,

And you expect we talk nicely to you in return ?

Nah, if you talk nicely we won't dulan loh."

The end, continue nagging and my white hair are going to grow.

Lols, okay.

Talk about stuffs today.

I got praised by Mr Kang for my exposition compo.

Its the only one he was impressed.

And, yeah !

Hahas, missing boyfriend leh.

And he's going for some dumb checkup today.

Im going ACE ! For biology ;D

Have to start mugging le.

And, smsed kenny today.

He got back his phone!

Lols, okay.

Nothing else i think.

Hope blogger will always be normal.

No problems or dumb and long maintainence.

Bye.

{♥}Ruldolph,

Currently attached.

A new life.

2009-07-26T12:27:00.000+08:00

I am starting a new life.

Motivated to study.

No more excess playing.

No fooling around anymore.

Study hard.

And hope that i get repaid by my results.

And maybe a trip overseas.

Bless me please.

Study starts now.

Ruldolph,

iloveboyfriend.

Im bored.

2009-07-12T20:07:00.000+08:00

Shag face.

Happy face.

Faceless.

Teehees face.

Concentrated face.

♥

Okay, i know you people can see that im bored.

Indeed i am.

Nobody's cheering me up.

Maybe boyf, once in awhile.

Then entertain myself norhs.

Those photos up there is taken for th following reasons ;

1. Trying out my "new" phone.

2. Plain bored.

3. Random.

4. To show my sunburns.

5. My hair ;D

That's all, boring boring.

Yawns.

End abruptly here.

Chop-Chop, end.

Ruldolph,

Random doesn't solve anything.

Grounded, self quarantine.

2009-07-12T18:56:00.000+08:00

♥

I'm grounded today.

Locked myself in room.

Ss homework, only did one out of three questions.

Bio assessment, only did ten MCQs.

Now i'm rotting.

Arranging my photos.

And i found this picture up there.

That's my botak brother.

Suddenly miss him alot.

Before he left he texted me ;

"You be good gal. Okay. Dont naughty ah."

Touched, he don't text me th norhs.

Kor, i'll be waiting for Twenty Four of this month.

I'll buy you your Milktea which you forgot to take that day.

And was finished by Darien goh i think.

Cause, its not in the fridge anymore.

Alrights, Dinner Popiah.

Texting and blogging.

Nothing else i could do.

Shall end here.

Off to miss my boyfr.

Bye.

Ruldolph,

Boyfr, i suddenly remembered..

You hit my face ! LOLS, random.

Its th day that matters. ;D

2009-07-12T13:10:00.001+08:00

♥

Baby, 12th July's here.

Thanks for everything.

You're the best.

I'm left speechless.

But all i can express is, Elated.

Nothing else ;D

{♥} Appreciated.

To my boyfriend ;D

2009-07-12T00:08:00.000+08:00

Boyfriend,

Thanks for being there.

And yeah, what you say is true.

Without you, i still have to learn to stand up on myself,

To solve my setbacks.

I'm trying to, but i just can't.

I can only cry to myself cause i want nobody to be worried.

And, it also provides a space for me to think and let out everything.

And because of all these "trainings" to take care of myself,

Your enlistment has became my worst nightmare and torture.

Fear not, I'll try to take care of myself no matter what.

-end-

Ruldolph,

I prefer living in my own world.

That's it.

Bye and leave me alone.

P.S ; not to boyf.

Overdue photos.

2009-07-12T00:01:00.000+08:00

Yeah, school has started !

I think it's fine so far.

Sometimes, it's freaking boring.

But yeah, have to live with it D;

And, pink socks, friendship bands, I'm rebelling.

Overdue photos,

Every photo has a meaning.

Enjoy.

-end-

Ruldolph,

Break free.

Day out ;D

2009-07-11T23:44:00.000+08:00

HELLOS! back to revive.

Lets start from the Overdue.

Briefly I'll go through.

10th July, Yesterday =.=

Okay, skipped school with valid reason.

Went to send my brother off for his NS D;

Psst, my brother looks nice with botak ;D

Hahas, alright. No tears shedding scene at all.

Went to watch Minyi Youth vs Minyi Chargers.

Chargers lost D;

That's all.

Today, went to sentosa with Joy, Colin, Desa, Yihui and Jon.

Will try to get the photos they candid.

Actually wanted to take a group photo but dint D;

Okay, as early as four in the morning, went to colin's house.

Till nine plus then went out to meet the rest.

Breakfast at KFC.

Went sentosa straight after that.

Played Frisbee, Poison ball, Dodge ball and swimming.

Hahas, overall, whole day was fun.

Excpet for the bathing part.

Have to bathe in open shower as toilet was overcrowding.

Then went to habourfront centre for dinner at kfc.

Proceeded back to sengkang.

And basketball-ed at Anchorvale CC.

First time there, and impression was, FULL OF MOSQUITOES !

I'm filled with mosquito bites and sunburn D;

Hurting on the outside.

Now, the hurt in the inside.

The spoiler of the day.

Everything was leaked out and i realise I've been prank-ed.

Not funny kay, FCUKER!

Fuck off my life if you fucking think this fucking game's fun.

Whatever fucking shit you said about being primary schoolmates,

Its all a fucking lie, you fucking bitch.

I know this is vulgar.

But this is the way i rant.

Scram if you don't like it.

Disappointed, Engulfed with anger right now.

Alrights, shall end my unhappiness here.

SMILE, and chop-chop. I'm that Bernice again ;D

Ruldolph,

Not appreciated anymore.

Quarantined.

2009-07-09T23:15:00.001+08:00

Yoh humans !

Bernice was quarantined today =.=

School's suppose to end at two-thirty.

I left at one-thirty instead.

LOLS, that's unexpected.

Went to Colin's house.

Wake him up for more than half an hour.

Finished SS and successfully wake him up.

Then played with his niece.

His niece french kissed me !

Saw Michelle, Meishi, Xinfei, Wyndee & MO at compass.

Mo still as pretty as before.

Really miss her loads.

She gave me a pair of earrings.

I won't know how to dress up with it.

But i'll keep it for sure.

Went for lunch at compass with laopo, KFC ;D

Then went to skcc.

Dint play as it was overcrowding.

Chatted with laopo while Desa and Co. smoked.

Then headed to the playground behind shell station.

Played blind mice.

Super fun ;D

Went home around ten.

Then blogged.

Now having a weird mixture of..

Mineshine Milk tea (SUPER NICE !)

Cereal from cereal prawns. (YUM YUM !)

And, Mantou ? lols.

Hope i won't get diarrhoea.

My desk is in a mess.

Must get it clean by sunday ;D

Tomorrow no school for me ;D

Sending my brother off to NS.

Then watching Minyi Youth Versus Minyi Chargers.

Then Saturday, SENTOSA !

Lols, i've been having fun.

After this week i must start studying.

Get my head into studying !

Shall end.

When's blogger gonna solve the unable to upload photo problem ?

Ruldolph,

3 Years ain't a big age gap.

Much better than a pedophile.

Drastically dragged myself past this day.

2009-07-07T22:08:00.000+08:00

Yoh, people.

Back to random posting.

Today's half fun half shattering.

I took drastic measures to drag myself past this day.

Morning till afternoon was fine at school.
As well as basketballing at skcc.

Evening, started tuition.

Boyfriend din't contact me as he was sleeping at friend's house.

Went home.

Emptied my bag.

Went to tuition.

Saw mum packing my stuffs.

As well read my stuffs.

I was like, What the hell.

And she wanted me to explain.

Explain what fuck ?

Privacy mum.

What do you want me to explain ?

I know I'm the only girl at home.

But you're over protecting me.

I might be immature fifteen to you.

But at least i know what's right and wrong.

Please stop stressing my wits out.

Okay, whatever hell english I'm using..

I'm just ranting.

About my boyfriend ;

I know you din't meant to pangseh me again.

Hahas, so don't blame yourself.

Called boyfriend's house and his mum ask me to call his girlf.

Which was me =.= LOLS.

Hello, girlfriend's finding.. Hahas.

Was worrying for you the whole day.

Anyway, thank you !

Thanks boyfriend for rushing down though you're just opposite my block.

Thanks for the white bueno though i think its meant for yourself.

Thanks for cheering me up though more credits to my ice cream.

But lastly, thanks for being there.

Hahas, ending here.

School tomorrow.

Boring !

Brother's going NS , miss him.

End, i hate today.

I don't care what Kimbum's birthday.

Just don't like this day.

It has gotten my eyes swollen D;

Ruldolph,

R.I.P to my ice cream )):

Sorry for not being able to finish you.

And drop you on the floor ;P

First week of school.

2009-07-03T23:28:00.000+08:00

There's problem with blogger..

Can't post photos.

So nothing much to post about.

Briefly, First week's no big deal.

Boredom filled my days.

Dozing off nearly every period.

Can't adapt to the habit of sleeping and waking up early.

Homework's are all last minute work.

Tha's all i suppose.

With photos, i'll post more.

2nd july's my unlucky day man !

You came thinking you could change my luck.

In the end you got the bad luck yourself.

Two months, not a vey long time.

Do i only get to treasure and be with you for this short time?

Everything just happened so quickly.

I wasn't prepared.

Don't worry.

This two months, i'll learn how to takecare of myself ;D

Ruldolph,

Treasuring.

Deleting in progress...

2009-06-27T20:05:00.000+08:00

Dear all readers,

All inactive links and private blogs are deleted.

Tag me if you want me to link you up again.

Thanks.

Damn, I spent an hour deleting ;P

Im grounded D;

2009-06-27T19:27:00.001+08:00

So sad now.!

I'm grounded and that's alright.

I still have to do loads of stuffs.

Clean the windows.

Mop the house.

Change water for the vacuum cleaner.

And guess what.

I'm still here in front of the computer.

Oh my god narhs.

Then there's this stupid BROKEN LEG dolphin.

Who sms-ed me halfway and MIA.

hahas, stupid Baika.

Knew you would read it so I purposely post about it.

DUMB, you can poke me through the computer ;P

But I know you'll be looking at the laptop screen of yours.

And smile foolishly.

Hahas, too bad I'm not there to look at your dumb face D;

Because I am GROUNDED.

For god sake. Somebody please get me out of here.

Somebody please help me finish my chores.

I know its impossible. D;

Alright, shall go and suffer now.

Wish me luck that I'll return back to blogging uh !

hahas, Byebye!

And BAIKA ! stop smiling foolishly ;P

Ruldolph,

I smile to your absence, S.

Left me in a pile, all broken into pieces.

2009-06-27T19:16:00.000+08:00

Cute photo you may say.

Yeah, only that girl beside me is cute.

This photo seem perfect.

However, its a photo of a broken friendship.

Pity? Nah, glad i should say.

Rather all these craps end quickly.

Than having me enduring the pain all by myself.

Does she cares? Nah, sad isn't it.

Imperfect, nothing turns out well do they?

Well, forget it.

What's over is over.

Holding back only cause more pain, more trouble.

Friends, what does it mean to you my dear?

Betrayal? Advantage?

Yeah, when you said your friend took you for granted, i pitied you.

Have you thought about it, aren't you just like your friend?

She hurt you, which gave you the permission to hurt me. Am i right?

Wow, speechless. You're somebody I never knew.

I'm somebody you never cared for.

I can admit that my attitude was bad at sometimes.

But you, I worried and cared. All you gave in return was your freaking attitude!

Let that be. Let us be strangers.

What Hi-Bye friends, not an inch closer.

I don't know you, I don't want to know you.

Simple as that.

Girl, live your life and stop ruining mine.

You've everything you wanted don't you?

Fare well.

Ruldolph,

Silently, i'll leave you.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SWEETY!

2009-06-26T19:39:00.000+08:00

Happy birthday to TEO MEI SHI !

Hope you all had fun yesterday ;D

sorry couldn't be there.

Have to accompany a broken leg person.

Hahas, fifteen years old le wor.!

Must work hard on studies.

Smoke and drink less.

And smile more!

Meishi, should be honoured cause i revive my blog to wish you happy birthday.

120th post ;D

Holidays, definitely not wasted.

Watched loads of movie.

Night at the museum.

Monster VS Alien.

Ghost of girfriends past.

Land of the lost.

All also okay bah ;D

Went chalet too.

Chalet was half fun half disgusting.

Working at carl's.

nothing better.

Last two weeks, never work ;D

Lazy type le.

Byebyeee(;

& EDDIE SUCKS!

Ruldolph,

nothing's fine.

extremely shocked & simply unbelievable.

2009-06-14T00:51:00.000+08:00

{♥}
Genting was fun ;D
Finally I had time with my mum and younger brother.
I'll post more in the future bout my trip there.
,.
Humans, so shocking.
To me & junting, always that Mr Nice Guy.
Always treat us so good.
Then when its to the different races guys.
You all become racist and bully.
What the hell is wrong with you all.
Humans, always so unexpected.
Speechless.
So shag, what's work now ?
A place to waste time.

{♥} Ruldolph,
Forever that foolish.

today, i pon school.

2009-05-29T11:13:00.000+08:00

♥
SPRITE.
School's, Pretty, Ridiculous, In, Tender, Encouragement.
,.
Random.
Pon school.
Slept till eleven.
Then im here.
Later there's work for me.
Five to twelve.
Today might be fun.
Cause th two malays will be working.
Hope th shuaige will work ;D
Hahas, my idol worhs.
Okay narhs.
Blogging become quite a boring stuff to me le.
Blog next time.
Buhbyee.s

{♥}Ruldolph,
All my fault.

miles apart.

2009-05-28T23:48:00.000+08:00

♥

Dedicated.

Im born to love and thank.

Therefore, for people who cared and loved,

Im here to thank.

Thanks to,

Kenny, for smsing.

Colin, for dancing.

Aaron, for singing.

Junting, for being there.

Gary, for encouraging words.

Kianbin, for caring. (think so)

Maybe there are more.

I cant recall.

My memory fails me.

Anyway, special thanks to th person i cried for.

Thanks for not caring ;D

Im contented.

Im speechless.

Im totally disappointed.

-mute-

{♥}Ruldolph,

why did i cry for ?

woken up to my senses.

2009-05-28T23:00:00.001+08:00

♥

White, means plain.

White is such a nice colour.

I realised, crying is of no use anymore.

I cry, and so what ?

Other than some friends, do other people still care ?

Seriously, i dont know.

The one i cried for, not your fault alrights.

Maybe from the very start, i was wrong.

Wrong in knowing you.

Wrong in falling for you, pratically twice.

But lucky for me, i realised you aren't the person i knew at first.

You were totally different.

Maybe you changed due to influences.

Or you changed a mask so i would fall for you.

Or maybe, i was the one who changed.

Dont know, dont want to know.

Four girls, i dont care who they are.

Its enough.

Enough to throw me miles away from you.

I granted you a permission to stop contacting me.

Cause contacting me might waste time.

Waste money.

That time, Junting pinched my cheek.

First thing came into my mind was you.

Cried, tears streamed down as if it was free.

You're not the fault.

Not blaming you.

Seriously, thank you for th times you've been treating me so good.

But you just left and simply forgotten me.

I know im not some so so attractive girl.

Forget me then, maybe YOUR life would be better without me.

Now, best wishes for you in being with th girl you like.

Best wishes.

I've forgotten you.

The images of you slowly fades away.

{♥}Ruldolph,

forgotten you.

photos and reviving of blog ;D

2009-05-28T22:46:00.000+08:00

hi peeps.
th very very very shag bernice,
is here to revive her so so so dead blog.
photos first ;D

my name tag ; Bernice, Carl's

Im not emo, my fringe's too long ;P

work attire doesn't come in FBT.

me and junting, CARL's.

see that so so pretty girl there ? she's my boyf ;D

RAWR, random. im getting ugly D;

a friendship i had made.

This is th so so cute MICHELLElim.

This is th innocent teoWANLING.

what i've drawn for th random.

♥

work's alright.

fun people.

school's alright.

days are normal.

friend's alright.

not much comments.

my life is too filled.

if i blog it all out, have to use one whole long long post.

so cut shorts norhs ;D

shall end here.!

life's better.

{♥} Ruldolph,

life's better without you.

falling down to my feet.

2009-05-13T23:05:00.000+08:00

♥

A hand , many holders.
A heart , only one keeper.
Everybody do change,
Caused me to change along,
So don't ask me why I've changed,
Cause you 'd change as well.
,.
First thing ;
Happy Belated Mummy Day.
& Belated Thirteen Months Single.
Thirteen months Bernice have been standing strong.
Sorry to those who liked her ,
Those she couldn't accept.
Biyaneh & Kumaroh.
Sorry & thank you in Korean.
,.
Next ;
Exams have been the main reason why my blog is left dead.
So I'm here to revive it.
There's no school for me tomorrow and friday.
Exams was is greatest disaster for this month.
It came crashing into my life unexpectedly.
So sudden, so rush.
Couldn't cope.
I gave up, I really did.
I'll do my best for End Of Year Exams.
I promise. ;D

{♥} Bernice, the cat.
Doing better than expected.

Defiance.

2009-05-07T14:21:00.000+08:00

♥

I'm like a puppet.

Moving along everyone's way.

Why must i be the one giving in ?

I don't seem to have any life do i ?

Let me walk out from my strings. :/

Today's exams were Hardcore.

English had difficult passages.

Emaths was just, Nightmare.

Ruined.

Thanks to the following people ;

Steven ; For concerning.

Don ; For understanding.

Zhiyong ; For counselling.

Yisin ; For enlightening.

Miaoyuan ; For listening.

Baodong ; For chatting.

They are equally important to me as compared to my girlfs.

Thanks for all those caring.

Appreciated ;D

{&} Ruldolph,

Defiance is a type of truancy.

Mess, i think.

2009-05-05T20:16:00.000+08:00

♥
Undone.
So many things Undone.
Even the correction tape cant erase my Undone[s].
I'm procrastinating.
Till i cant complete anything.
Undone, Unfinished. That's me.
That's nothing to be proud of.
I'm shag.
,.
the first time you held my hand.
i didn't know what to do.
The following times, i didn't open up my hand.
Because i knew i would be giving you false hope.
sorry.
its my fault :/
It came from the bottom of my heart.
Sorry, boy.

{♥}Ruldolph,
Ain't that sweet anymore boy.

introducing ; Boys Over Flowers :D

2009-05-04T20:35:00.000+08:00

Boys Over Flowers :D

this thing is suppose to move okay !

1st guy ; pottery.
2nd guy ; rugby.
3rd girl ; tio bully.
4th guy ; musician.
5th guy ; shooting range.

handsome rights ?

argh ; Jin Fan, real name. ,most handsome.

so energetic looking rights ? cute !

th F4 korean version.

five main characters :D

real life person at autograph session.

Jin Fan and Jin Jun, dont think they're brothers :P

th other side of them ; fashion ;D

handsome rights ? im not wrong.

Saxophone ; his leisure. Super CUTE !

THIS SHOW IS HIGHLY RECOMMENDED ;D
hahas, anyway th storyline is superb.
no comments, just some separation parts are sad.
;D its PERFECT.
Jin Fan is my IDOL, second idol for dramas ;D
,.
today is a special day ;D
school was not special.
after school was not either.
skcc was ;D
decided to go there because I've nothing better to do.
in th end, there were...
Baodong and friends, one whole group.
Gary, YISIN, don, don friends, Pris and many more.
today was quite fun.
Yisin's name is caps because long time never see him le.
I've to make this post short.
cos I'm texting three people.
today was fun because that monkey's back to normal to cheer me up.
will other days become solemn ?
lets just see. ;D
,.

i enjoy th time you walking me home.
however, th enjoyments became an addiction.
Now i've to walk home myself.
its as empty as before.
though many people walking pass me, but i see none.
though many vehicles travelling, i only saw an empty road.
this is me, Empty.

Ruldolph,
can anyone give me some advice ?

dreams never come true, do they ?

2009-04-30T21:24:00.000+08:00

long time since you saw me rights ? ;D

Yeah, credits to baodong, th shot was taken ;D

if love was as easy as putting two hands together.

oh, reviving my blog in progress.
cant really post everything that happened last week.
lets just say bout today.
exams was a bore.
after school, girlfriends cab to Mich`Lim house.
"Deposited" me at school.
waited for Baodong and friends.
walked to Jiaming, Eugene, Baodong's house.
headed to Kovan CC.
Saw don's friend, Aloy at bus stop.
Kovan CC was super boring.
Bus-ed back aloneeeee.
back at skcc, played like mad.
Ball hit my head and arms.
Dont know what's wrong.
Not concentrating barh ;D
walked home alone.
not really alone, Silence accompanied me.
Am i still strong enough to continue walking th road myself ?
i think i would have to give up on him.
also giving myself some peace, freedom and strength.
i took so much courage to like you.
Now i've to use all my strength to forget you.
it might not be th best choice for me.
but definitely th best for you :)
sorry but thanks too.
stop here.

Ruldolph,
hit me on th nose.
let me wake up.

its was a great blow from a sucker.

2009-04-22T22:08:00.000+08:00

credits to Naqib, One year back.

i know I'm never alone with friends.

The hard blow from him.
Although it was only one hit, it came harsh.
I couldn't here anything from my right ear.
All i heard was little quarrelling through my left ear.
My heart skipped a few beats.
Tears streamed down my cheeks as though it was free.
All i thought that moment was "i want a hug".
At that very moment, i hated that i was single.
I wished someone would stand up for me and fight him back.
I stood up and walked out of the hall.
I really cant hear anything on my right ear.
I just kept crying.
Little whispers were heard in my head.
Telling me "I'm useless."
Telling me "its painful, bear with it."
Telling me "the humiliation's over."
I just wished i could hug somebody for real long.
I cried till my face turned red.
The side he hit was equally red.
What a guy i should say.
Fancy hitting a girl's injured knee for no reason.
I know you like to say that I'm not a girl.
Because of my voice.
I ignored ; you just cant be bothered.
I'm a girl, which i know clearly.
I don't need you to tell me who i am.
I've tolerated much of you.
Who are you ?
Fancy a guy hitting girls and verbally abuse them.
I've no words in my vocab to describe you.
It's not only me who's tolerating you.
I find no reason why must we anyway.
Just leave us alone will you ?
On my way home.
Saw some really nice lightnings.
Only lightnings, no sound of the thunder.
It was pretty in a sense it can be seen clearly.
Is god mad at me for crying over such silly things ?
Or is god mad at me for not being strong ?
How many times have you cried this month , Bernice ?
Countless.
Thanks a lot eh ?
Thanks for hitting me..
Thanks for making me cry..
Thanks for thinking that hitting a girl ain't your fault..
Thanks for everything..
You let me realized you're a total jerk.
I've had enough, LEAVE ME ALONE, CAN YOU ?
Special thanks to 3E5 girls who cared.
People who accompanied me by texting.
For example ; Zhisen, Jiaming, and more.
Thanks Mich, Meishi, Ling.
Thanks Mich.Lim, Briana, Xinyi and more.
Thanks to that person who hit me.
I've woke up and i'll never remember there's such a person like you.

{&} Bernice,
stronger.

Ecareers ?

2009-04-21T13:55:00.000+08:00

hello people,

here in school's com lab dont know what.

decided to blog because michelle's beside me, blogging too.

okay its super boring now.

dont know what are we doing here norhs.

anyway, pass few days was boring.

only sunday when joy and janice came to my house.

yesterday =.= okay day at skcc norhs.

then home. no life narhs.

have to start studying lerh.

lols, okok. now have to go do dunno what dumb thingy.

blog next time.

gonna leave my blog dead till MYE' s over. MAYBE only ;D

Ruldolph,

geek.

probably, just me.

2009-04-20T20:06:00.000+08:00

im imperfect.

family ; a thing i realised th importance only now.
yesterday ; i was watching my mum and younger brother playing,
spraying each other with water.
i've come to realised that im fortunate to be in this family.
Abuse doesn't surface in our family.
i've parents and two brothers who would care for me.
brothers, occasionally.
my family is rich , but not TOO rich.
which was enough for me to have my own room.
no worries having three meals a day.
credits would mostly go to my mum.
But dad, he suffered all sorts of pain.
that me as a daughter would never understand or experience.
how i wished i would strangle th boss for making my dad's life so horrible.
dad worked so hard,
just to be able to give us more allowance once in a while.
though he dont earn much, im still proud to say,
MY DAD'S TH BEST !
my mum too !
th most understanding mum.
th sometimes unreasonable mum.
its an aid in our journey of life.
her encouraging words pushes me on into higher results.
i am a lucky girl i'd say.
a father who offs th lights for me every night.
a mother who wakes me up every morning.
a younger brother who let me use th toilet first.
a elder brother who pops by sometimes and buy some sweets for me.
a family of five isnt big, its just right.
all those little imperfections are covered up by th sweetness in my family.
i may be imperfect but my family made me feel im th best.
im fortunate.
,.
relationship ; a thing i've given up long ago.
i know im not perfect.
but im not that imperfect that im equivalent to a rubbish.
there's no way im gonna be somebody's proxy.!
and why let me fall for you then ignore me right away ?
i really give up.
this is just not my type.
two person walking on one road ?
one would be better.
i've never been able to find a guy that would wait for me to love him.
everytime i want to accept, you people just give up.
which meant that im not worth th wait.
dont wait then, im imperfect, and not your type.
single's th best, i guess.
sarcastic remarks push me back everytime.
i put up with it. now i shall put down everything.
and back off. as what i said,
"in this world, there are other Bernice(s),
i can ensure you'll find a better Bernice."

{&} bernice, the imperfection-ist.

recommendation. ;D

2009-04-19T17:39:00.000+08:00

"Cold As You"

You have a way of coming easily to me

And when you take, you take the very best of me

So I start a fight cause I need to feel something

And you do what you want cause I'm not what you wanted

[Chorus:]

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

Just walk away, no use defending words that you will never say

And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through

I've never been anywhere cold as you

You put up walls and paint them all a shade of gray

And I stood there loving you and wished them all away

And you come away with a great little story

Of a mess of a dreamer with the nerve to adore you

[Repeat Chorus]

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

Just walk away, no use defending words that you'll never say

And now that im sitting here, thinking it through

I've never been anywhere cold as you

You never did give a damn thing honey but I cried, cried for you

And I know you wouldn't have told nobody if I died, died for you

(Died for you)

Oh what a shame, what a rainy ending given to a perfect day

Every smile you fake is so condescending

Counting all the scars you made

And now that I'm sitting here thinking it through

I've never been anywhere cold as you

this is a nice song ;D

enjoy !

yesterday ; 18april.

2009-04-19T17:13:00.000+08:00

a random present from don.

day out for SEVENTEEN AGAIN ;D

yesterday ; 18 april.

rot at home with joy and brother till 1 plus.

bath, changed and went out.

ROT at compass and skcc till 5 plus 6.

saw what baodong did for zhiyu.

if i were zhiyu, i'll be touched like siao norhs.

zhiyu's so fortunate but also unfortunate in a way.

dont know how to describe what i am saying ;P

nevermind. went to cyberdoom to find jiaming and friends.

today is also abit of a f*cked up day.

cos joy and my brother keep mood swing.

changing minds, picky about this and that.

but all ended soon. HOPEFULLY.

if not i'd have blown my head off.

watched seventeen again ; rate 10/10.

storyline was cute, ZAC's handsome !

movie started t 9.20pm, ended at 11 plus i think..

oh yarh, at cyberdoom. alot good looking guys eh.

but only michelle and wanling would be interested ;P

not me. ;D next time bring them there ;D

then don gave me something...

it was part of my birthday present i guess.

thanks anyway ;D

today ; boring....

woke up quite late.

acked my worksheets.

finally its neat.

then went compass, brother cut his hair.

i returned my book. dint borrowed any.

i've read four books in a week.

this is madness.

should stop now. D;

hahas, went skcc played a little.

score only ONE BALL !

broke don's slipper D;

oh my god. so sorry mans!

joy and janice came my house, randomly.

shall end here narhs.

going play with joy and janice.

-bye-

Ruldolph,

not that into them.

BERNICE HAS DECIDED !

2009-04-17T21:29:00.000+08:00

I am going to change.

I am going to start studying.

I am going to adapt to solo life.

I am going to visit skcc lesser.

I am going to try my best for mid years.

I am going to all ACE classes.

I am going to stop cancelling tuitions.

I am going to change my mindset towards studying.

i've realised, time doesn't wait for anyone.

everytime stepping into skcc,

is wasting of time.

i've to buck up before everything's too late.

i've to stop my carefree life.

i know its going to be difficult for me to change.

but i must change.

i will be back to my geek style last year.

study study and study.

i've no other choice.

this is th only way to reduce th disappointment.

in me, or my parents.

i can do it ;D

bernice's studying.

four dead days.

2009-04-17T20:45:00.000+08:00

i look tired. D;

bernice's made these fruit tarts. ;D

no more pain ;D

compass toilet. ;D

am i going to be a geek ?

random, camwhored.

boo! random ; i know..

twist ;D im zilian , no doubts.

half a heart ; who will be th other half ? ;P nobody.

my special hair, take closer look. ;D

neh !~ my hair ;D

hahas. twist, my hair nice right ?

im a happy girl ;D

two PIGu ;D

14th april , commerated international friendship day.

wrote best wishes on flags.

a guy name ricky from 4e5.

wrote ; "lose and dont come back"

then mr muru caught him, super funny narhs.

then nothing much happened,

i went to school alone.

got back emaths and amaths paper.

emaths ; 23/30.

amaths ; 6/30.

so big difference norhs.

okay next.

15th april. meishi absent from school.

school was,.. lonely.

went home and out again.

went skcc, quite fun though i dint score much.

saw HAOSHENG when going home at interchange.

pei gary, pris and joy wait for their buses.

then all th bus came at th same time.

so i walked home myself. cooling wind ;D

dunno what happened at home, slept at 10.30pm. ;D

next..

16th april. woke up late ; around 6.40am.

rushed to lrt station but in th end...

yifang pangseh-ed me and went school.

nevermind about that..

went school alone.

school was boring.

after school was th captain's ball league.

1st match was with 3e3.

won ; by 6 points i think.

2nd match was with 3n1.

good match, won by 3 points.

last match, finals, with 3e6.

got dingkang and juehong two boys leh.

though it was a game of 8 vs 6, we still lost.

by 2 points D;

we clinched th second placing and we're proud of it !

thats all.

17th april, today =.=

made fruit tarts during f&n lesson.

tasted nice and looked cute.

pe was module, basketball.

fun playing with classmates.

school was fine.

after schoolwent home and rot till 3.

watch ghost whisperer D;

bought subway cookies !

FAVOURITES!

random shopping with michelle, wanling and meishi.

wanling and meishi wore until so nice.

i wore cca shirt, mich wore polo tee.

very weird combination norhs.

after random shopping went skcc.

fun, then went home.

chem cher called to complain =.=

forget it.

i've no mood.

-byebye-.

Ruldolph,

its stressful.

12th april and 13th april.

2009-04-13T20:55:00.000+08:00

happy one year single to me on 12th april. ;D

my PIGu ; cute rights ;D

shang xin D; and my scar D;

just shang xin D;

feeling better ? D;

i love toilet ;P twist !

white jersey ;D

frog eh ; can see ?

full moon ; super nice right ? ;D

black jersey ;D

okok ; shag.

12th april ; its my one year single ;D

pampered myself and snuggled in bed till 1.05pm.

went to compass meet joy ; skcc meet don.

then bought my CAKE and went home with joy and don.

then joy, don, my brother and i played cards and random games in my room.

then left for sbc.

when we reach there ; th match was tong whye and rong something.

tong whye not as good as expected ;P

then next match was minyi versus safsa.

minyi starting leading norhs, end with losing 5 points.

minyi alot people came to support norhs.

lols, spent my day chatting with joy about two somebodies.

and texting.

miaoyuan lost his phone on this day.

oh my , first time heard him through th phone,

and his voice only projected sadness.

i cant do anything to make him happy norhs D;

anyway. spike gary by saying that miaoyuan chosen ivan.

cause he only remembered ivan and my number. ;P

too bad gary ; miaoyuan like your brother more ;P

hope miaoyuan can become happier norhs.

today ; oh my god.

back to school. what today's date ?

13th april., i see. ;D

went to school alone ; dunno where's yifang.

hmms, boring day at school.

finally completed my 2nd book in two days ;D

bio test ; rawr =.= flunk it.

slacked in class norhs.

idiotic person, presentable on th outside.

yet so vulgar and rude.

disgusted eh =.=

sms, read, nothing else.

after school... NAPFA ! rawr =.=

five stations.

okay ; let me use my lousy memory to recall.

1st ; shuttle run ; 11.17 mins D; A although.

2nd ; incline. (how to spell ?) ; 18 ; dunno what grade.

3rd ; sit ups ; 41 D; one more to A so im B D;

4th ; standing broad jump ; 167cm. just pass i think D;

last ; sit and reach ; 36 or 37cm. dunno what grade D;

now i've to rely on 2.4km.

dunno can make it anot eh D;

so sian ; i've nothing better to do.

im ending this post soon.

gonna bathe and read my 3rd book.

im addicted to KINDER JOY.

&& th road i use to walk alone, not use to walk in pairs.

-end-

Ruldolph,

smile please. D;

two leftovers.

2009-04-11T10:20:00.001+08:00

i cut myself when bathing =.= lols.

10th April ; movie session ;D

me and laopo joy ;D she's super cute narhs.

9th april ; bballing session.

{&} Bernice.

hello ; two wonderful days had passed.

because its too wonderful, i've no time to blog and im tired.

lets start ;D

9th April ; Thursday wors.

recalling...

school ; then after school pon maths extra lesson.

then went library alone to find books.

then skcc-ed.

played alot.

then don's friends were angry with him and left.

they went to buangkok green i suppose.

then i became peacemaker and patched them up.

hehe ;D then went home.

super tired. walked in rain too.

okay next.

10th april. GOOD Friday.

met out with joy jevin and don with my brother.

then mum and dad came along for movies.

lunched at pizza ; i've no appetite.

then mum and dad went to get th tickets 1st.

we went to shop.

then gathered together for movies.

1st ; FAST and FURIOUS 4.

rate ; 9/10.

th way Vin diesel drive is super cool norhs !

he's handsome norhs !

then i agree with joy and Paul walker was handsome too ;D

hahas, some exciting and some shocking parts.

then mum and dad went off on their own.

then we met miaoyuan and gary for 2nd movie.

bought tickets at 6.10pm for KNOWING.

rate ; 8/10.

storyline was fantastic.

but ending was no link ; zzz.

then sound effect was too.. horrible.

had to use earpiece and on music to reduce th effect on my ears.

sometimes ; its useless. can imagine ?

lols, because of th lousy and no link ending..

when th movie ended, miaoyuan and gary immediately stood up and left.

LOLS. then we went park lane.

miaoyuan and gary went pool-ing.

then me joy don and my brother went dinner at mac.

oh ya, jevin went home before our 2nd movie.

then we went to th arcade, nothing to do.

so went to find miaoyuan and gary.

cool, th both of them could play all types of ball games man.

then went back plaza to mrt to kovan.

on th way back, miaoyuan and gary had a bet.

see who can walk without giving way.

hahas, that's was funny narhs.

oh, kiliney's at park lane eh ;D

then at kovan.

they wanted to bowl.

i was lethargic. kept yawning.

at there ; full house.

so th two older guys went arcade.

then all of us headed home except for gary.

that's th end of th day.

i swear i had lots of fun.

just abit too tiring. ;D

that's all then.

-bye-

Ruldolph,

myth.

a tiring and injured day D;

2009-04-08T22:22:00.000+08:00

this is my 100th post.

yeah ;D

okay today, in school.

hmms, what happened ?

erh, walk in th morning.

played with e5 girls.

then was classes.

smsing, copying notes.

recess, got caught by mr muru for wearing pe.

went back class to get uniform.

damn it norhs, waste time !

then after recess, chinese.

chinese completed "fan si".

teacher dont believe, SUA ! lols.

then read my book for emaths & FT period.

then assembly was some skit.

then stayed back for ss test.

had sandwiches norhs and peach tea.

then ss test was 50mins.

50mins must complete four SBQ questions.

oh my god, i think i'll do badly norhs,.

i still have th time to write ; "oh my god, so difficult, 50mins only!"

lols, random.

after test, skcc-ed.

quite fun, met with some "monster" who is hungry to win.

but they dint , thrashed them three sets.

me, don, zhiyong and another guy one team. ;D

yeahyeah ; it was fun, th guys were hilarious.

then went 120. oh man, super lot people.

me and yeehui went to play at future park, super fun.

then went back to th court.

saw tessa, and steven O.O

then played th other netless court.

very fun, but not on form. D;

today, no photos. bernice's tired.

she dont wanna go school tomorrow D;

shall end here readers :D

-tata-

Ruldolph,

chey.

what a rotten luck D;

2009-04-07T21:42:00.000+08:00

{&} bernice say ;

thanks to everyone and loves ;D

ber {&} bear.

bernice love everyone ;D

ONE of my belated present ;D

people ; photos doesn't show how i felt today.

only two words ; disappointment and humiliation.

disappointment ; in myself.

not performing good in studies and creating nuisance and trouble for myself.

humiliation ; the NYAA awards, i dint get it.

nobody even cared to tell me. wow. humiliated, but thanks.

during reading period, the awards were given out.

i've played my part in just looking at them taking an award i should have.

now all i can say is , put my certificate down a shredding machine.

the pain of you tearing it in front of my face would be much worse.

i have to put up with th urge of crying and smile.

i have to fake that i was reading actually im ready to pour.

nobody will ever understand how i felt.

th happiness i had in th morning knowing im gonna get th award.

turned into unhappiness which filled me to th brim.

unhappiness slowly deteriorate to sadness.

nobody bothered telling me that i was not getting th award.

when i asked alfred what time to assemble, then he told me.

ms yeo say you're not getting th award.

yeah man, thanks for telling me, seriously.

or i would be much of an embarassment if i assembled and returned to my class.

then me, meishi, wanling, michelle.L, jasmine, alicia were being called out.

all reported to mr tay and wrote statement forms.

about th dumb biology thingy. what th fuck ?

then have to report for one and a half hour detention after school.

went back class, lesson lesson.

amaths test, i was in a crying mood.

i dint have th brains to think, or th strength to write.

i skipped two questions, like, what th hell, im so gonna fail.

then recess, wanling and michelle were waiting outside th class.

after greeting mr tan, i walked out of class & hugged wanling.

then it was when i couldn't hold onto my tears anymore.

poured, yeah. i've let it out.

then i recovered halfway through recess.

that's fast, normally it would take me th whole recess to recover.

then it was geo, chinese, english, CME.

detention from three to four thirty.

i had to spent my bloody school hours without my handphone.

mainly, for music. it was super bored.

detention was like play time. relaxed.

completed some homework.

after detention, went compass.

then skcc. then home. then tuition.

then im here blogging.

i seriously have no mood, freak mans!

i shall end unhappily. D;

-bye peeps-

Ruldolph,

what a certificate.

th second part of my birthday.

2009-04-06T20:35:00.001+08:00

three candid faces ;P

me and my toy ;D

four friends forever.

twist people ;D

my sweet fifteen ;D

best girlfriends forever. ;D

okay ; second part of my day.
meet up with baodong at compass's macdonalds.
then went to skcc.
then saw huiting and friends at third floor.
like , what th hell ? so many people.
then suddenly i was asked to go up too.
then went up with baodong and don.
don covered my eyes, psst ; i could see.
hahas. then saw everyone playing with poppers when don let go of his hands.
then i saw th cake.
oh my god, i wanted to cry. i was just too happy.
it was a cake, with my photo on it.
oh my god, so damn touched.
then we ate th cake and played around with creams.
then th stupid don, as usual, injured himself.
that's stupid enough.
okay then i have a long list to thank.
people whose name is not on there, think carefully, you've forgotten me.
thanks to th following people, for sending me wishes for my birthday.
in order of who came first.
,.
weijun ; 10 mins earlier, not counted ;P but thanks.
1st ; wanling.
2nd ; don. (three times)
3rd ; baodong.
4th ; michelle.
5th ; kelvin from kfc. P.S ; happy birthday too.!
6th ; jerron. (eight times)
7th ; zhisen.
8th ; mummy.
9th ; grace.
10th ; wenqi.
11th ; dingkang.
12th ; yifang.
13th ; kelvin from 3e6.
14th ; pris.
15th ; joy.
16th ; huiting.
17th ; qihui.
18th ; stephanie.
19th ; michelle.
20th ; alicia.
21st ; yanying.
22nd ; daddy.
23rd ; jiangnan.
24th ; albinia.
25th ; crystal.
26th ; javier.
27th ; xinyi.
28th ; jasmine.
29th ; bryan.
30th ; alfred.
31st ; juehong.
32nd ; miaoyuan.
33rd ; wangzi.
34th ; boon hiang.
35th ; rouxuan.
36th ; desmond baey.
37th ; huiyee.
38th ; cedric.
39th ; briana.
40th ; sean.
41st ; sylvia.
42nd ; mike.
43rd ; jolene.
44th ; whole class , sang birthday song.
45th ; gen.
46th ; jiade.
47th ; dion.
48th ; angel.
49th ; lixin.
50th ; rosth.
51st ; kenny (cvss).
52nd ; benny.
53rd ; youxiang.
54th ; felix.
55th ; clement.
56th ; joel.
57th ; naqib.
58th ; rafidah.
59th ; ummu.
60th ; sebastian.
61st ; caryn.
62nd ; aunt meilian.
,.
people, thanks alot man.
thanks a handful of you who gave me present.
like be listed down tomorrow. ;D
shall end abruptly again.
-bye-

Ruldolph,
really contented.

lets post about 6th april's morning.

2009-04-06T14:39:00.000+08:00

bernice had turned FIFTEEN !

woohoo, today was a extremely fun day at SCHOOL.

school ; you know.

that boring place only homework and scoldings.

today was an exception.

its was my birthday.

so it was exceptionally fun at school today.

in th morning, when i woke up.

i had four messages waiting to wish me a happy birthday.

then in school hours ; more came.

morning. meet up with jiangnan and yifang.

yifang took like 15mins to recall its my birthday.

jiangnan dint say anything. LOLS.

bad start. nevermind.

then at quadrangle, had more wishes from people around.

got my very first present from qihui and stephanie.

went back to class, nothing much happened.

then recess, me michelle meishi wanling and jiangnan were mad.

michelle and wanling started off hitting each others butt.

then slowly all five of us went mad.

then we all perspire and pant like mad.

then recess was over.

i ran into baodong and friends.

got gang bang-ed and had "birthday bash".

then skipped chinese, went to play with meishi in toilet

singing , laughing , anything.

then it was bio.!

okay, this is th funniest part.

caoyu told meishi three jokes.

meishi told me that three jokes.

i told alicia, michelle, jasmine, wanling th three jokes.

then all of us were laughing madly.

then teacher couldn't take it, so she threw us out of class.

six of us and caoyu wasn't caught.

hahas, then we were examining th teacher.

laughing madly outside there.

bio lesson did flew fast.

it was amaths.

i was still mad, meishi was tired.

then we were playing at th back of th class.

at th end of th period, mrs cheow got th class to sing me a song.

happy birthday... and they went on.

i dont know whether to be touched or laugh as they were off tune.

definitely i was touched. ;D

thanks 3e5 !

now im gonna rush to compass for th next part of my celebration.

hope it would be fun too.

be right back.

-loves.-

Ruldolph,

already contented.

im ageing.

2009-04-05T21:01:00.000+08:00

i left home in this sleepy manner .

i went home in this happy manner.

i went downstairs in this screwed manner.

this is joy's and my sweets ;D

today ; joyous mood.

listening to unbelievable. ;D

today was bored in th morning.

then meet up with joy for lunch at kfc.

then went to skcc.

then kept laughing at th way people play basketball.

then don came, then junming came.

jingjie, ahlam, hamster came.

then guys kept discriminating me and joy so we left.

went to compass, randomly bought sweets.

then went back skcc.

played around three matches, joy went home.

she was angry, i hope she isn't.

cause people kept taking her sweets.

then went home, bathe.

rushed downstairs, thought steven would reach soon.

but he dint, meet don. he's downstairs.

then he went for tuition.

i went home.

steamboat-ed. quite nice ;D

cheese tofu is nice !

mum made burbur hitam for me ;D

listening to superhuman now.

then present from steven was left outside my house.

a dog piggybank ;D thanks.

i've had enough for th day.

im resting and blogging here now.

shall end abruptly.

-end-

Ruldolph,

1 day,

three an a half hours.

hope it would be a good day.

congrats to th following people.

2009-04-05T00:26:00.001+08:00

this post is a random post.

to three special people who told me their 2.4km timings.

1st ; SAM, 13.05 minutes.

quite good ;D jiayou for five stations wor.

hahas. th way you run is funny ;D
,.

2nd ; NAQIB, 12 minutes plus.

very good, but you think its not good enough D;

anw, you've tried your best narhs !

good luck for five stations.

&& th way you run is, normal. very persevere. Good !

3rd ; JIAMING, 13.17 minutes.

good, behind sam by a little bit.

hahas, but you only passed by a little cos you're 17.

but nevermind narhs, oh thanks for your piglet.

thought you dont want to buy a present for me.

hahas, hmms. th way you run is, slack but u seem very tired.

hahas, all th best in studies and basketball ;D

okay, other stuffs.

presents ; im contented i guess.

i cant ask for more, or my disappointment would be bigger.

from younger brother ; Nike bag.

from mum ; Canon camera.

from dad ; Nike jacket.

from aunt ; MaryJane pink shorts.

from baodong ; pig pencil case.

from jiaming ; piglet handphone holder.

i guess thats for now.

will upload more information on th actual day ;D

-end-

Ruldolph,

2 days.

will anyone remember ?

lovely, sweet. i love shopping.

2009-04-04T23:35:00.001+08:00

hearts ; credits to my new cam.

white roses ; nice right ?

present from ahyi and daddy ; thanks!

lols, this is funny,. i wrote it myself.

three girls, complement to be perfect ;D

me and bus 74 ; this is candid.

im her bodyguard ;D

i L.O.V.E wanling !

we've made , our day, prefect.

chachacha, three imperfect girls ;D

okay, today was fantastic. i love shopping man.

but morning was dull as i had tuition.

then, after tuition, headed to vivo with mummy and aunt.

went to have lunch at imperial kitchen.

food was quite nice, rate : 8/10.

then went shopping, shop for damn long but i got nothing.

finally i had my eyes on my first birthday present.

a nike jacket, it was nice ! ahahs. love it man.

then we walked for super long.

then settled down at secret recipe.

tea-ed there, with super nice cheesecakes.

and flying ice out of my iced chocolate as i was stirring.

mum said i was violent ;P

after that, i immediately got my second present.

pink shorts from MaryJane.

nice, ;D woohoo !

after that, mum and aunt went.

FBT aint nice for me, so not intending to get it.

so i mrt-ed back sengkang alone.

on th mrt, at outram park.

suddenly alot bangladesh boarded th bus.

no racist okay.!

a guy dug his nose in front of me, ewwww.

then he left th mrt, another chinese guy took over his seat.

this time, i was falling asleep.

and everytime i open my eyes, he's looking at me.

as though i had a fly on my nose.

maybe i did, who cares, i know i dont.

okay, went to skcc and played.

then slack at compass with brother and joy.

then walked home.

thats today ;D

yesterday ; i've blogged about what happened in school.

so after school, woohoo.

had meeting for odac after school.

took about an hour.

fled home straight and bathe, change.

then meet up with wanling at compass.

then michelle at her house's void deck.

then we bus-ed to AMK hub.

then shopped and bought tickets.

then started to call baodong.

but he overslept. so movie was with don, mich and wanling.

watch unborn, scary. D; but quite a good storyline.

then bus-ed back sengkang.

we even ran for 159.

oh gosh, how long have i not been running ? oh my.

then ate random stuffs at compass.

went to fernvale's basketball court randomly.

played madly there, camwhored.

then WALKED home from there.

sent wanling home as her place was unsafe.

then accompanied michelle for her bus.

then walked home from there.

i was drained out when i reached home.

so doze off quite quickly.

thats all.

shall end here.

-end-

Ruldolph,

2 days.

tags replying in progress.

2009-04-03T09:52:00.000+08:00

tags are replied.!

briana ; link le wor, link me back :D

elena ; remember ;D th work kfc last time th.!

shoppe pardise ; alrights.!

alien ; spamming again. your planet so far, who'll go? diputs.

mich ; *hugs* yuppyupp ;D

a 100mins theory.!

2009-04-03T09:39:00.000+08:00

bernice's at computer lab four.

super cold.

before home econ was PE.

dint played module as i was in uniform.

th NYAA prize presentation was cancelled for dont know what reason.

after school gonna watch unborn.

hopw everything goes right.

during pe, 4e5 are having their actual 2.4km run.

me and meishi sat there in uniform like retards.

haha, laughing at people playing basketball.

cheering 4e5 people in running.

then now im here at computer lab four norhs.

100mins for home econ's theory.

watched "dont ignore diabetes"

was quiet nice and meaningful.

and of course it has a link with home econ norhs.

or else teacher will not let us watch it.

okok, gonna listen to theory lerh.

and teacher keep looking at me touching th keyboard.

;D paikia wor.. hahas.

-end-

Ruldolph,

3days. ;D

what a day :D

2009-04-02T22:27:00.000+08:00

argh, retarded ;P

okay, today was,,... fun ?
2nd april right ?
hahas, at school, i dint fall alseep only rested.
i dint pon chinese, and i did not get scolded for being late for class ;D
after school, went home, meet don baodong and jiaming.
then went to kfc, retarded! sat there for 10mins.
then went away cos i thought baodong and jiaming wanted to eat.
and they thought me and don wanted to eat.
alright, wrong assumption.
then went skcc, washing in progress.
so it was fairly bored.
then went to compass, don ate.
then met up with mich and wanling.
don went to take bus by himself. *sorry norhs.
then i went to kfc to eat with mich and wanling.
then we did loads of stupid things, cant remember.
then i went back to skcc while th two girls dunno go where.
then went back there, huiyee was shooting.
so joined her. then played till 7 plus.
went to slack at compass with BD, jiaming, Peiqi, huiyee, dickson.
then mich and wanling came to find me,.
then slacked and went skcc.
played, they scored and they're happy.
they're so cute norhs. lols.. mich and wanling.
then went home at around 9.30pm.
walk home alone, wind was breezy.
so free to walk all by myself. no fears.
my life might be mundane.
but i know it isn't. ;D

tomorrow going to th movies with friends.

hope there's not going to be backing outs.

hope it would be a fine day ;D

i love girlfs.

&& tomorrow 18 odac people, including me.

will be going on stage to get th NYAA badges and certificates.

woohoo, scared but looking forward to it.

for jason, what a disappointment.

you've made ms yeo shed tears for you.

maybe she's true that you dont deserve your cert.

but hope you learn from your lesson.

miss yeo may be harsh, but every ODACian is important to her.

hope you would understand and turn over a new leaf.

once an ODACian, always a ODACian.

remember that, you're still a part of odac.

its up to you, whether you wanna still be in it.

&& ms yeo ; cry no more.

i guess th sec 3 odacians will all say sorry to you.

we dint have th chance to stop him from his mistakes.

as a family, in th same level, we should know each other best.

yet we dont. sorry, ms yeo. D;

,.
-end-

Ruldolph,

4days.

to my three dear girls.

2009-04-01T22:15:00.001+08:00

BABE ; bernice loves you three k?

meishi, michelle, wanling.

meishi ; dont cry lerh.

my heart aches to see you suddenly breaking down,

and crying right beside of me,

and yet i cant do anything D;

michelle ; pure class is a tough one for you.

sorry i cant help you.

im not that smart.

dowan to see you falling down and dont wanna stand up.

i'll pick you up on your feet, if i could.

wanling ; dont cry D;

those kind of bastard , cry ler no use eh.

he's a freaking idiot.

dont cry k ?

heart very pain eh.

three girls ! i wanna hug you three at once.

i want you three to know,

im there for you all.

you've my shoulder to cry on.

you've a hug to warm your heart.

you've my cold jokes and smile to cheer you up.

i'll be there when you need me.

remember, bernice's here.

also thanks for being there for me too :D

Ruldolph,

5days. ;D

accumulate three days of rotten memories.

2009-04-01T21:29:00.000+08:00

our nyaa scrolls ; fake one ; its empty.

me and pearlie ;D at singapore poly.

slack at toilet ;D

two bernices ;D thats rare.

me and huiting ;D 9 years of friend.

woohoo peopleeee ; bernice's back to blogging,.
two days dead D; dint meant to D;
dint have th time D;
okok ; lets recall ,.
,.
Monday ; 30.03.09.
like nothing on ; monday blues.
school was normal ; wanted to go swimming.
but women's problem. cant xP
so its gonna postpone while wanling and michelle went.
then walk ; WALKED to compass with baodong.
im so so addicted to superhuman ;D
went skcc ; so bored norhs. D; then nothing on le.
,.
Tuesday ; 31.03.09.
school was like... duh ~
emaths test was like... wow ? what th hell ?
after school ; okay, not after school.
around 12.30 left class for lunch then went SP for th NYAA awards.
got bronze ; then went back sku.
camwhore with huiting and our chocolate. super funny norhs.
LOLS. then don came to find me at skc.
then WALKED to compass again.
went to skcc then saw baodong and dickson.
so slack slack, and went home ;D
addicted to kinder joy ;D
then nothing ler norhs.
,.
Wednesday ; 01.04.09.
HAPPY APRIL FOOLS.
okay, 1st person who fooled me was mich.
then baodong. then baodong again.
today was unlucky.
got caught by mr muru cos i havent change into uniform.
then In school suspension.
after school, me and girlfs was waiting outside school.
for baodong and don.
then baodong came out.
we were chatting then mr muru called us again.
we thought we're blocking th road.
so we moved.
then mr muru caught me and mich as pe was tucked out.
what th ? hate it man. what a april fool.
so unlucky D; rawr.
then went skcc, quite sian.
so left early. then went to cupwalker.
then saw jerron and friends.
then walked home again ;D
thats all. boring eh.
shall end here. ;D
-bye-

Ruldolph.

worries.

tags ;D

2009-03-29T22:13:00.000+08:00

TAGS ARE APPRECIATED AND REPLIED ;

teckcheng ; okay narhs, link ya ;D

Briana ; YOH ; briana.

Mich ; loads of nonsense narhs. you dont emo can lerh.

Alien ; SPAMMING AGAIN ! slaps ! lols. invade your head.

birthday's coming ;D

2009-03-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

my birthday's arriving in eight days.

oh man , dont know is it happy or unhappy.

will my girlfriends remember it ?

will my other friends remember it?

i wonder if i would cry ?

nah ~ dont think so.

presents ? how many ? what are they ?

lols. forget it.

counting down, EIGHT DAYS.!

sunday, woah?

2009-03-29T21:45:00.000+08:00

my new cam !

miaow ~

random day. studied & went skcc today.

meet baodong and don.

skcc was filled with human beings.

so many people mans. knew we couldn't get to play.

so went outside court and shoot.

after a long long long time, i decided to listen to music.

listen for damn long still dint get to play.

then freda came. ;D ;D

then still nothing better to do.

went to compass bought bubble tea then went back skcc.

then slack, then played in rain with chengyang & baodong.

then changed, and proceeded home.

walked home, then had dinner.

done my compre, slipshod work again.

bet will get scolding D;

then now im here, blogging.

shall end here.

-bye.-

Ruldolph,

miaow~

tag replies ;D

2009-03-28T21:44:00.000+08:00

people ; TAGS ARE APPRECIATED & REPLIED ;D

Michelle ; love ya ! thanks to be th 1st ;
thanks for helping me create this tagboard.
though its slanted ;P
Alien ; SPAMMER! lols. no larh.
apparently, i dont understand your alien language.
hehes, takecare toos.
Meishi ; yeah love ya. ;D yepp you could be 2nd.
scold th alien norhs ;D
Wanling ; hahas, three claps & three claps & three claps for wanling ;D
thanks eh ;D love ya !
number four ! ;DDD

what a saturday ?!?!

2009-03-28T21:23:00.000+08:00

oh what a day. ;D candid.

WEICHONG for sale ! candid :D

oh woah , what a boring saturday.
people! its saturday. oh my god.
tuition early in th morning, then lunch-ed at pizza.
went to skcc , studied , complete some homework and play basketball.
hand muscles very stiff D;
therefore, i still cant score. D; sorry DD;
then, around 4.30 ; went compass.
saw justin and ian.
accompanied don for his 156.
then went to buy th following things ;
Milo and Mocha ice blended.
lychee tea , peach tea.
then brought everything to skcc, my hands hurt. D;
then soon, nightfall.
went to have dinner at kfc with brother.
brother bought sushi and headed home.
then i wanted to walk home but my brother wanted to take lrt.
so i told him to take lrt norhs. i walk.
he pull me by my bag and dragged me towards his way.
but, in th end, of cos i won !
walked home.
he was crazy, singing and walking as if he had piles on his backside.
lols.. super hilarious and cute loh.
oh yarh, my laopo is sick !
laopo, speedy recovery yeah ?
i want to see th cheerful side of you.
alrights. shall end here.
and yarh, no pictures of me today ;D
-end-

Ruldolph,
considering.

a day ; fun and tiring.

2009-03-28T00:24:00.000+08:00

at skcc ; its was sort of fun and boring.

Kinder Joy ; th toy. thanks to don. ;D

okay, today. im super tired out now.

went to th deserted court behind koufu to play.

with don, baodong, weichong, shawn, chris and andy.

quite fun ;D

walked home with don, baodong, weichong.

baodong and weichong was hilarious.

they're like dancing? with th song, womanizer.

LOLS ; super cute th. don was mad too.

oh, that was range time nine to twelve at night.

morning, school as usual.

pe in th very 1st period was bored.

i was in school uniform and dint take part in pe.

then it was F & N.

cooked for th whole of two periods and 10mins of recess.

recess ; thanks to javier who helped me bought my food ;D

after school ; THERE WAS NO CCA FOR ME !

yeahyeah ! then me, michelle, wanling and meishi,

went to find wesley. WL wanted his number.

michelle helped ; finally got it & wesley got stead le =.=

then went skcc. mich and wanling went jogging.

thanks for th peach tea anyway.

not long, i ran off to meet my mummy at compass.

&& I've BOUGHT MY NEW CAM ;D

its white ;D oh my god. love it.

then , went skcc norhs. then very bored.

then everyone left, then there was no basketball.

then we went to 260, they'd their dinner.

then slacked at compass then went koufu there to find BD.

thats all norhs.

what a tiring day.

my hand's red ; thanks to don D;

joking ~

-end-

Ruldolph,

question marks.

a game ?

2009-03-26T22:41:00.000+08:00

Using the first letter of my name ; and complete this.

Questions ;
1. what is your name ? ; bernice.
2. a four letter word. ; BABE.
3. a guy's name. ; Brian.
4. a girl's name. ; Brenda.
5. occupation. ; Basketballer.
6. colour. ; Beige.
7. something i'd wear. ; Boots.
8. food. ; Breakfast. ;D
9. something found in th bathroom. ; Bathrobe.
10. a place. ; Belgium.
11. a reason for being late. ; Bus is late.!
12. something you'll shout. ; BERNICE'S bored !
13. a movie title. ; Bring it up.
14. something you'll drink. ; Barley.
15. a musical group. ; Backstreet Boys.
16. an animal. ; BUNNY.
17. a street name. Bugis.
18. a type of car. Benz.
19. song title. Breathless - shayne ward.

this is "spacer".

2009-03-26T21:38:00.000+08:00

i came home in this manner ;D
so funny right, what a random face.

i left house like this.

i drew this during lesson.
cute right ;D

this is cuter ! wahahas. ;D

my title is alien language.
okay today ; another weird day.
hmms, morning, of course its SCHOOL.
boring boring. ate pocky in class ;D
then sleep, listen music, listen to class once in a while.
and ; ITS RECESS ! lols..
after recess, pon chinese ;D
only me and jeanette. ;D
then dont know what happened.
suddenly ; meishi hand alot blood.
ZOMG, then she kept screaming while i scream with her.
but i was screaming to ask her to go to th toilet.
LOLS, then alright lerh.
soon, end of school. YEAH !
went home straight, so obedient right ?
but went out straight after that.
went to meet don, baodong and jiaming.
went to kfc then quarrelled about eating there or taking away.
in th end, i won ;D take-away !
hahas, went skcc, play play then don left for training.
after an hour there, left with baodong and jiaming.
went to buy things then slack at 1st floor of compass.
and this is for baodong ;
,.
sorry baodong D; D;
you said you wanted to see NCHS basketball people.
and not "her". then i saw one basketball guy.
but i dint notice "her".
then because baodong suddenly feel very sian.
i feel so guilty narhs.
then i cry D; omg, sorry baodong.
from just looking at you, i can see you're sad.
but you kept putting on a strong front.
sorry my friend D;
,.
continue ; aww man. im still so guilty.
hais. after that walked home.
then baodong and i decided we go watch coming soon together.
but michelle finish watching it nerhs D;
huh... dunno how leh D;
depends norhs.
okay ; shall end here.
today bernice cant score D; she's unhappy bout it.
-end.

Ruldolph,
im so sorry.

what a day. filled, but bored.

2009-03-25T21:14:00.000+08:00

starting of th day, i was bored like shit man.

end of th day ; i was smiling happily.

"always look on th bright side of life."

i only spotted it, like just ? hahas.

okay today. wow !

only wednesday eh D;

oh my god ! its so damn long.! monday,, then tuesday. now ITS WED !

in school, LOLS. its freaking boring me out !

classmates ; i mean guys , are FREAKING disgusting.

all they think about is those dirty stuffs.

my class girls are adorable. ;D

guys are th black dots on a piece of white paper.

just th girls would be perfect man!

a cute class that will be.

hahas, i've a sudden craze for taylor swift's songs.

hahas, her voice is so sweet narhs. envy~

okay continue ; after school.

ZOMG ! bored like shit man man man !

stayed back for ss ace ;

then dint go odac meeting cos have to take a test.

then ms yeo say what ; next tuesday can 12.30 leave can for NYAA.

O.O 12.30 leave class then what time end wor ?

lols.. nevermind. then lrt-ed to compass.

meet michelle ; wanling and don.

then me, mich and wanling chatted with zenna.

don chatted with his friend ;

who turned out to be zenna's friend.

what a small world.

then we went to skcc. LOL.

michelle and wanling was playing with bubbles.

then they came shoot a few balls.

then continued their talk about wesley. LOLS.

they're super cute narhs.

brighten up my day.

after everything, went HOME ;D

had instant noddles for dinner.

now im eating apples ;D

shall end my randomness here ;D

-bye.

Ruldolph.

happy.

im not sastified.

2009-03-24T21:36:00.000+08:00

i find no reason to continue.
can i just end it ?

this is what i get for being best camper.
LOLS. so "cute" eh.

today, school was boring.
dear meishi dint come school.
i was so damn bored.
listen to music and draw stupid stuffs in class.
then after school, decided not to go odac.
cos, my leg is aching like mad.
then miss yeo die also want MC.
forget it, then went off with michelle.

long time since i had chatted with her.

know quite alot of her recent stuffs.

just wanna say ; mich ! you've me ;D

then i went home, tuition.
after tuition, i was asked to wash th dishes.
there was a huge heap of bowls, and all random stuffs.
wash loh. my stupid brother actually said to change th houseworks.
then in th end i wash D;
what th hell. okay, shit i cried again.

people dont worry ; im alright. ;D

tears should be let down once in awhile, its healthy. ;D

okay thats crap ;D gonna end here.

my feet's aint recovering D;

and people, stop laughing and bothering bout my feet narhs!
thanks, for giving me so much stress.
-give up-

ruldolph.
shut up.

this is a late post.

2009-03-23T21:22:00.000+08:00

this was me , on th last day of hols ;D

not very happy uh ?

this is me ; 1st day of school.
look like crying right, omg D;

this is me ; after school and basketball.
look much happier rights.
wahahas. proceed to posting bah.

okok ; here !
today ; i mean yesterday.
quite a boring day at skcc.
watching basketball again ! watch again.
aww man , super sian.
today ; much much fun.
starting is super bored th norhs.
then ., i see HOPE !
somebody came with basketball.
woots ! hahas. yeah yeah.
I've a big toe plastered today.
1st day of school, went in Don's slipper.
today was boring at school. kept dozing off.
also , bad things happened.
i dint meant to eavesdrop but, you all are speaking so loudly.
something happen between yisin and don D;
aww man, both my good friend eh.
if they quarrel how ? im stucked in th middle of nowhere. D;
shall end here lerh. my mum is asking me to go empty th rubbish D;
byes. ;D

Ruldolph.

friends.

i'd never like that disgusting guy !

2009-03-21T23:25:00.000+08:00

rainbow ;D

okay, today was half fun and half bored.

for goodness sake. some people can actually play till so rough.

pump, bang, hit, elbow. aww man. PAIN !

nevermind, forget about that,.

this rainbow was nice but, not nice in photo.

today is so unlucky!

my slipper broke. like what th hell ?!? so sway.

then don have to change into his basketball shoes just to lend me his slipper.

thanks uh ;D

then spent most of my time drawing and finish amaths D;

school's gonna start in another two days. Oh my god D;

aww man, tomorrow.. boring. no plans at all.

guess have to go work then complete some other homework.

hehe. shall end here.

Ruldolph,

love's simple. ;D

foul mood. D;

2009-03-20T21:24:00.000+08:00

this was how happy i was went i left house to skcc.

but th smile dint last. all because an idiotic guy.

today , 12 or 1 plus left house.

reached skcc only have *andy.

then shoot shoot then studied and did amaths.

super difficult narhs. headache headache.

then played match with tampines.

after that * suddenly confronted me then say what, why i keep diao him =.=

what th hell. i dont even want to look at him norhs.

disgusted. then my mood became bad because of him.

idiot norhs. what th hell.

with a lousy mood, guess i provoked alot people.

so im posting to apologise to those people.

really sorry eh D;

today TOTALLY not fun at skcc norhs.

again, its another day just WATCHING people play. D;

shooting still sucked. yisin and don came down under my pestering ;P

lols, then lidat lorhs. its was a extremely bad day.

how i wish th time can rewind to yesterday or th day before.

so fun norhs. D; hate today mans.!

and that * , you ~!@#&*()+_!@#$%^&*()_+~!@#$%^&*()_

stop being unreasonable can ?

who'll like you ? not joy , neither me eh.

stop being unreasonable, i dont even have th time to look at you loh.

dont say diao norhs. zzz. stop ruining my mood can ?!?

hate you ! get out of my life !~

-end-

Ruldolph.

foul mood.

a special post.

2009-03-20T01:43:00.001+08:00

YISIN made me post about me so i think i could ;D

this stupid guy here injured his knee.

so im posting to tell him he should takecare of himself instead of saying about me.

this guy is quite good in basketball.

he's fast, he's sharp. but just too skinny.

so, easily injured or pumped by others.

so he've to eat more ! train more ! have muscles not fats ;D

okok. only saying bout him not fair eh. lets mention somemore people.

,..

BROTHER ; 1st time entering an outside team.

me as your sister wasted loads of saliva,

just trying to convince mummy let you go for 1st training only eh.

must put in effort and play well.

must not neglet studies ah. you can cope th ! jiayou.

also, dont trick people narhs. later fight how ?

i cant fight for you eh. if im korkor i sure can. but im not ;P

okay okay next !

,..

JUSTIN ; jiayou jiayou.

train on chest pass, stamina and run faster ;D

other things are good lerh.

and, stop forgetting that i've a swollen left leg.

so.,., stop stepping on it ! lols.

nothing much to say. also study hard eh.
EXPRESS eh. even im stressed. you might be worse.

okay okay. LAST.

,..

Don ; also take good care lahh.

injured shoulder right. LOLS.

play so serious eh. SMILE, dont serious!

lols. hmms, also.. N levels, study hard eh.

best is after N levels you still can take O levels.

O levels cert is important. dont rush into ite.

jiayou jiayou. NA students still can have a bright future.

alrights.!?!

end here le.

LASTLY.,

,..

BERNICE WILL STUDY HARD.!

FILLED TO THE EXTREME!

2009-03-20T01:20:00.001+08:00

joy ain't cooperative ! hahas. love her anyway ;D

today , busy day man. but its was a day, filled to th extreme.

morning, yawns. was woken up by th stupid house phone at 6 plus. OMG !

then at around 10 plus, finally wake up. psst, I'm a pig. LOLS.

then went for luch with mummy, & two brothers. at Long John ;D

saw my ODAC people eh. WTH WTH !? cos i pon camp.

but no worries larh. got excuse. tuition & work ;D

its true okay.. i don't lie ;D * as if.

anyway, after lunch. SKCC :D

aww man, not much people. only nchs people =.=

don't like to play with them. D;

then justin, baodong, eugene EVERYONE came.

FUN norhs. no serious games at all. all just play.

maybe only with sengkang sec then THEY abit serious.

I'm not serious at all. i just go super happy when i score. i know that's lame..

but i was happy mah, really happy.

then nearing... 5 plus. me she him them they we left skcc.

alright, me joy justin my brother don gary and zhihao left skcc.

headed to tpy - ONE PLUS HOUR TRIP. (bus-ed)

half bored half interesting on th bus norhs. just felt like sleeping.

then reach that place. ZOMG! th place is so cute. dunno how to say.

but negative stuffs still ain't absent.

there are numerous flies and cockroaches. ewwww.

but its alright. at around, 11plus th coach finally finish his "presentation".

then there was no BUS !?!? so took a unknown lorry to hougang.

very cooling norhs. very fun ;D

then ate at hougang. OMG, gary eat damn lot man.

i skipped supper. so fattening. D;

then cab-ed home ;D and tada, im here.

okay lah. today was fun ! hope everyday can be like this.

shall end here lerh ! byes~

Ruldolph.

as happy as you can see. ;D

aww man, i've cravings.

2009-03-18T18:36:00.000+08:00

i have th craving for chocolates again D;

aww man. i want chocolates.

i know this is random.

but im bored. and i want chocolates. D;

hahas. counting down to my birthday.

its 3weeks and 3days away.

i've gotten a NIKE bag from my younger brother.

a black one. cost around 40 bucks.

im treasuring it !

im gonna get a camera i want from my mum.

an adidas jacket from my daddy.

a NUM slipper from my elder brother.

hehes. for my friends. dont know eh.

if i've present from you guys, means im quite important to you norhs.

if not, i dont know what to say ;P

well time's still long.

shall end my day-dreaming here. ;D

-end-

long time since i see myself in a photo.

2009-03-18T17:42:00.000+08:00

it has been a long time since i saw myself in a photo.

ahahs. people im back. not in an emo mood.

hmms, feeling exceptionally happy today.

,..

im back , after my bathe ;D & i got soap in my mouth. YUCKS.

nevermind, thats random. back to main topic.

,..

im happy, why ? hahas. cos i just feel that way.

with one injured leg, i still walked home. cos im happy.

hahas. today skcc only has less than 10 people.

th good thing is that i get to play instead of watching. ;D

played with miaoyuan & co. was fun as they wasn't that serious.

my shooting sucked today.

&& you know what ?

,..

BERNICE STUDIED TWO HOURS TODAY.!

,..

it was a great achievement as im not that into studies.

but this year sec, have to buck up a little bit.

aww man. im so happy today. like i've fallen in love.

but of cos im not. hahas. i feel free and happy. ;D

alright. tomorrow gonna complete part of my homework.

friday , more of play. saturday , study and play, half half.

sunday , work and play then rest for school on monday.

aww man, hols ending. i dont want to go back to sku D;

,..

theres's a baby whinning at th top of his voice!

just below or above my apartment!

very scary and noisy eh!

stop liao, okay... im random.

,..

back. today though i dint score several times.

i mean loads loads of time.

but they dint really scold me. hope they're not scolding me in their hearts.

hehe. hmms, just plain happy today. no special reasons.

shall stop my happiness here ;D

hope everyday could be as happy as today.!

ruldolph.

im happy, & i know it.

im glad that im being myself today.

no spastic smiles.

this is wonderful.

life for me should be in this manner.

stress-free ;D

love basketball.,.

flashbacks.

2009-03-17T23:11:00.000+08:00

looking back at the photos at my gallery.

compare and contrast. i've changed LOAD.

last time, photos of me, my smiles were real.

now, they look spastic.

i dont know whats into me.

i find myself breaking into pieces.

i know, who i like.

but i step back. i took a step back and give way.

i did not dare to confess.

im so jealous of people who are much much stronger than me.

like meishi. she's so strong. yet i fall easily.

im so so tired. i'd gave up time and again.

forget it. i just wish i get my good temper and that real smile back.

i dont wanna say a word.

i just wanna listen & change myself silently.

i dont speak a word not bcos i dont care.

is i cant. i know i cant. so im keeping quiet.

i dont react doesn't mean that i cant feel.

i felt, that pain you've caused in me.

i dint know i would miss you so much.

i just wanna keep quiet. & stone my heart.

ruldolph.

i must make a life out of myself.

& not you.